My Master Key Experience Week 1

Why is it so hard to follow through? You know how it is, we say we are going to make changes but don’t. Every year I make resolutions and, promises to myself I just can’t seem to keep. It is the one thing that I am most frustrated with myself about. It makes me feel like a complete failure.. Yeah, I keep a couple, but the most important ones, the ones that will make the most impact in my life, I fail at. Then I spend the rest of the year beating myself up because I did not accomplish what I set out to. Been there, done that. Over and over again.

I am excited about the process I am about to embark on. I will be learning, growing and becoming the person I have searched for. I’m not going to lie, I have my doubts. Am I going to be able to make the changes I need to make in order to achieve my dreams? Am I going to be consistent and, put in the work every day? There is still a part of me that is just a little afraid. But, that is exactly what has kept me from achieving all my dreams in the past. FEAR! Everything else I have tried has failed. What I am asking of myself right now is to just give this all I have. I am willing to be open-minded to this new experience.

This week, as I have followed the assignments, I have noticed myself looking forward to doing all my readings. I enjoyed working on my DMP. I am looking forward to the process of learning about myself. Really digging deep is going to help me decide what I truly want for my life and, for my family.

I was just telling my son last night about the power of visualizing and meditating on what you want. He has a few goals he wants to achieve with his art work. I explained to him that you think about you bring about. I now have to trust in the process. Only by doing so will I no longer allow my old blueprint to control my life.